So as I was sitting here printing a hard copy of the songs that I have on my ipod and thinking how convenient it is to have my music, movies, and games all in something that fits almost in the palm of my hand I started to think...."Man, has music changed". I remeber my first personal radio; this was the one that I had begged for over and over again so that I could listen to music in my room. I remember Christmas morning opening the package and just screaming because I finally got the radio of my dreams and this thing was up to date for the times. I mean it had TWO speakers and TWO tape decks and a radio and it's very own album player all in one. Did I mention that I was like seven and it was the mid-80's? Yet that was the JAM at the time. I ran and pulled all of my albums out of my mother's relic of a stereo (complete with 8-track) and ran into my room and started to JAM myself. I had my Run D-M-C, and Big Daddy Kane; I even had a little Aerosmith (don't ask) and I thought I was the S*&%. I was telling everyone about my stereo and how with it I was, but by the time that I reached high school I was begging again for a new system. CD's had taken over and I didn't want to be left behind. However, I wouldn't get my own for another two years, but I once again thought I was the S*$% when I did. Yet now as I think back through the albums and the tapes and the cd's and even the 8-tracks (wasn't alive when they were being made but my family did have a few left when I was growing up) it blows my mind that all of my music fits on this tiny little thing. I still remember boys walking around with boomboxes on their shoulder and break dancing. My first headphone set was probably the size of two ipods put together and this little thing can hold 7,000 songs and movies and games and photos and even webpages (although I haven't gotten that far because REALLY?). And the thing that I think gets me the most is that I don't even have 2,000 songs on mine but there are kids who are still in high school and younger who are stuggling to figure out which to take off because they are out of room! I mean have they even been alive long enough for 7,000 songs to even have been made? But they have them. Now maybe because I am getting older I am more disearning about what I listen to than I use to be, but really who needs to walk around with that many songs at the palm of there hand? It just amazes me and what amazes me more is that in a couple of years we are going to have to update because there will be a even smaller version that can hold even more and will cost considerably more. I think that is the goal here. To always keep us begging for the newest stereo, the biggest sound and the largest library. Still as I look back at my records (oh I still have them; even if not the player) I wonder. Has the quality of the music gone down even as the size has? Have we lost something in what we are listening to and how we are listening? Don't get me wrong; I love my ipod and I take it everywhere with me. But is the sound the same? And will our kids remember what it was like to hold a record or tape or cd in their hands. To know that you only have an hour of good music by one artist and not unlimited hours by any artist you can mix into a playlist or will they one day be writing their own blog on their newer version of what use to be an mp3 player that says "Ipod....I Remember You Well".

So I was watching "Two For The Money" tonight and there was a part that really stood out to me. I don't know if you have seen it but it is the part where Al Pacino is trying to teach Matt McConaughey why you use the F-word. He was explaining how it is one of the best ways to express his fustration and anger and intensity and alot more. This really stayed in my mind because I really didn't get it. I have use the word myself but I'm not proud to say that. It's not something that I walk around saying everyday and to me it shows a touch of ignorance. I know that I will offend alot of people by saying that but to me that is how I feel.
Now get me mad and who knows what might fly out of my mouth; I am just being honest. I don't have a short fuse, but if you get me going look out. Yet to me there just seems like there are so many other ways of expressing how you feel without using a word that when you really think about it; doesn't even relate to the topic of the conversation or arguement.
I wonder who was the first person who decided that this word was the one to use to convey anger or fustration or whatever other emotion it is suppose to express. Did they know that it would take on a life of it's own. Because in this day and age it is used for just about everything not just to express an emotion, but to express just about anything. It has almost become an adjective in its on right if you consider how many words and actions that it normally accompanies. Yet at this point does it really relay emotion? I don't know; nor do I think that I am the one to answer that question.
So next time you think to use this word or even not think and just let it flow; stop and think about what you are really trying to say. Ask yourself if this really is the best way to voice your emotion. Consider if this is the only way that you can get your point across. Look deep inside and find all the other words that you might be able to use that will say the exact same thing but in a better way. If you do all these things and the F-word is still the only word that seems right then maybe you could look over this blog and see that I have expressed my irritation with using that word without it and maybe we can all learn a few new words together.

As I sit her steady doing my job on and off and watching as people all around me are let go; I can't help but wonder: Am I next? This leads me to wonder if job security in this day and age is just a myth. I know that there was once a time that people found a job, not even a career, and they stayed there until the retired or died. Yet now people switch jobs easier and sometimes fast then they switch homes or apartments. And it's not like businesses promote longevity within the workplace. They let people go faster than J.Lo use to get divorced, but the question is why? What happened? Is it just the timeframe that we live in or like everything else going on right now can we lay the blame right at Bush's footsteps? However, there are a few people who have not only found something that they love to do, but have made careers out of jobs that were just supposed to be temporary. Yet are they happy? I myself have switched jobs more than I've switched states and it seems like everyone has more drawbacks then not, but they pay the bills more or less and their generally easy so I stay. But I am always looking just in case. I always tell myself that it is because I'm looking for the great opportunity or the perfect place for me, but the truth is that I am just not sure most times from day to day if I will have someplace to go tomorrow. What does that say about me or about the places that I attract? Because if it were a relationship everyone would be telling me that it was something that I was doing. So what is to be done? I opt for starting my own business and growing it until relying on others with be just a think of the past. But there are others that don't have that option. What do they do? Settle for jumping from job to job; career to career? Maybe they do, but is it far to them?